mrs selva came over and asked "what happened xueting, what happened to ur results? i expected u to do better. " mr quek came and said "so how? got improve right?" chen lao shi was commenting on our compositions and saeing that 17 out of 20 who did the 3rd qns went out of point. i was one of them=X seriously, i was shocked when i saw my hmt results. never in my whole schooling life had i gotten a C. and it was 59 !! one pathetic mark to a B. this is shit. i really dunno how im going to achieve my target for prelims and o'levels. all the targets which i set for myself seemed to be impossible. today during amaths lesson, mr peacock came in and he gave us a "depressing" speech. i guessed it was really depressing for our klass. i mean, no one will want to achieve this kinda results and we will definitely be upset over it. some blamed us for not being hardworking enough. do they really know how we feel. who in this world wanna fail??!! ugh-.0 back to amaths..mr peacock read out the names of the students whom he thinks should consider to drop either amaths or another subject. although my name was not being read out, but i know that im close to that. sooner or later, if i really dun prove something to them, wads the worst that can happen. the 1 hr talk was really depressing for us cause it made me realise how bad our class really is. BUT,im sure we can achieve better results if we want to. YES!! i believe in 4L1=)) though i know that the ISP in the june hols and the nite study is going to drive me crazy, but i'll never give up. the decision lies in all of us and we shall all work hard and prove those who looked down on us wrong. YAY:0o
for a period of time, i kept telling myself that this is only the mid years. in a way, it's good cos it will in one way or another help mi to regain confidence. but, it is in fact only a way of consoling myself. self-delusion. how much time do i actually have left. it's really time to do something. like what selva and mr peacock said, we have not much time left. but if we really put our hearts into doing sth, things will work out eventually. the choice is ours. it's up to us.
i'll treasure this last chance.